My husband and I were at dinner tonight when I explained to him how I wanted to dive more into this blog. My thought was to interview people who I love and are inspired by and would consist of questions leading up to it. I asked him one as an example, “What was your most powerful growth you’ve had so far?” I asked him what he would tell his 10 year old self today.
He sat and thought for a while and said that he wasn’t too sure and I should go first. I took a deep breathe and told him I couldn’t put into words how I felt. But with a few moments time I was able to describe it the best I could:
“It’s like walking down a deep dark alley way with no idea how you got there, where to turn, what to do, or how to feel. Everywhere you look it takes you deeper and deeper into that alley. Suddenly there is this light as if someone turned on a street lamp or opened up a door and you are thrown into this new vibrant world full of different thoughts and feelings.”
Boy is that true or what? Sometimes you have to look at where you have been to see just how far life has taken you. I feel very sad to think that my happy life that people thought I had (and that I truly did have in hindsight) was dampened by my own negative thought patterns. I wasn’t happy. I was stuck in the dark alley this whole time when the main street was just beyond a wall. I was that wall holding my own authentic self back. It just took something or someone, maybe me I don’t know, to open that door or turn that street light on to find my way to the truth.
And I am so very happy that I did.
Oh P.S. – Do be on the lookout for interviews from my friends and family including the one from my husband. Maybe we will find out what he ended up telling his 10 year old self afterall …. dun dun DUNNNNNN (that was supposed to be dramatic music)